Believe.

I talked with him today- the love of my life.

This is him, my “one.”

I thought I had found love before, but I had no comprehension of the term. He’s amazing in every way, and not a day goes by that I don’t think of him.

Now, before you pass any judgements on the “Long Distance Relationship” thing, hear me out. David and I met by accident. We aren’t really sure how, but we had appeared on each other’s AIM buddy list. Our first words to each other were “Who are you?”

I was sitting at my desk, newly hired on as the network administrator for a Golf Resort, and had just installed Trillian. I logged in, and suddenly, up popped

“Who are you?”
I replied with . . “I’m Josh. Who are you?”
“David.”
I typed “Hi, David. Do I know you?”
“I was just about to ask you the same thing.”
“Well, David, there are only a few reasons why I’d be on your buddy list,” I typed, “I’m a computer nerd, I’m a magician, and I’m gay. Are you any of those?”
“I’m a computer nerd, and I’m gay too,” he typed.
“Awesome.”
“I’m at work, but I get off tonight if you want to type more,” He invited conversation- this is a good thing. “Okay, I work late, but I’ll try to be on around ten.” I was intrigued.
“Bye”
“Bye”

It’s not the most glorious of “first chats,” but it was ours.

Later that night, I logged on. I felt rather silly for waiting around for a guy I didn’t know, but something told me he might be important. The Resort had been taking a lot out of me- early days and late nights, but it served as a wonderful distraction from my pain. You see, a few months earlier, the guy I thought I’d be with forever left me $6,000 poorer than I had started- for my best friend. Of course, not before trying to kill me.

Work was a welcome distraction from the silent clutches of my empty life. Sure, I had friends and a good relationship with my parents, but sleeping alone was strange and I didn’t want to think about it. As you’ll see from my chat, I probably wasn’t ready for him, but I’m so thankful he was ready for me.

We had chatted for a few minutes before this log was saved, so . . join in the conversation.

It happened March 19, 2004
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One tiny sentence can do so much.

JoshuNoShougai (11:24:42 PM): Wow . . http://www.latimes.com/features/health/ Lots of good stuff here.
JoshuNoShougai (11:25:20 PM): Hah! One walk and I act like a fitness fanatic. Silly me.
ericmw1 (11:26:00 PM): whats wrong with getting excited about it? keep it up!
JoshuNoShougai (11:26:14 PM): Good point.
JoshuNoShougai (11:26:15 PM): Taken.
JoshuNoShougai (11:26:16 PM): ^_^

Heh. . . It’s so easy to over-rationalize life. He’s right! WHY NOT? I mean . . Why not be excited about something positive in my life? I’ve certainly been in a tizzy about the negative.

I’ve only known him online for a few days, but he’s already made a lasting contribution to my life that I refuse to forget.

I’ve been so disillusioned- feeling like my passion is gone.

Perhaps it’s time to make some more.

Eric is a great guy, and fantastic fundraiser.  He is raising money to help us fight AIDS, and will be cycling through the streets of San Francisco!   So, help him out!  Get off your ass and join the tons of people who have already donated!  Go here.  http://www.aidslifecycle.org/1550/

Oh, and by the way, boys. He’s single. Check him out- he’s hot! hahaha! http://www.biggercity.com/personals/view.aspx?id=44738

Peace.